Well crap

Oof, that sucks. I actually have the opposite problem with painkillers. I keep saying “I’m allergic to opiates” and getting offered them anyways.

And yeah I also have the jaw clicking that I need to speak to a dentist about

Holy fuck I didn’t know they could shatter like that. Mine just kept hurting more and more

I had that, so personally probably both

I’ll keep enjoying the bread themed half season. Then at Mabon I’ll switch to beer and pumpkin spice.

Like, I’m edgy and witchy enough all year that I guess I don’t really feel the need to let Halloween creep into summer. Also living somewhere where the trees are mostly coniferous does weaken the feeling of autumn a bit when I’m used to leaves changing.

You begin by finding or making things you love and like about yourself and use that as a scaffolding upon which you can develop self love, before reopening the traumas to heal properly from them. I’d recommend building a deck, maybe with a hot tub and fire pit, it’ll get you moving, be a big project you can really be proud of, and leave you with a nice place to introspect. After that we can swing by the gardening section so you can feel the responsibility of keeping something alive and the joy of having plants in your living space.